The family reunion was good in a way, although I couldn't shake off the feeling of emptiness and loneliness although I was surrounded by people, all were family. I find now that quite often I am feeling this way, lonely I am not alone and yet I feel alone.
My boyfriend came to my parents seafood night the other weekend and it was awesome to see him. He ended up meeting pretty much everyone on my mums side of the family and spoke to everyone there. I was soo nervous about seeing him again, I literally hadn't seen him for five - six years and when we saw each other and spoke it was like I had seen him yesterday. I'm so glad he's back in my life, hopefully he remains in my life for a long time, it's already been around seven months together, last time it was only three weeks so I think it's going pretty well so far. Before he use to be only a head higher than me, now I'm up to his chest. I was of course being called by everyone (especially by my cousins) "Midget" cause of how short I am. He is a pretty cool guy, he works hard, he's funny, he's travelled all over Europe which I didn't know about him before but then again we were only together for three weeks then refused to acknowledge each other existed in a way.
A quote Taylor said was "may your heart always be breakable but never by the same hands twice", this is my second chance with this guy and I definitely think it's worth it. To me it is worth feeling that pain again if I do feel it again if we break up again someday because it is worth feeling this happiness again; I never realised how much I missed being his girlfriend till I started talking to him again and became his girlfriend again.
On a down side I finally found out the truth on why my ex cheated on me, he was drunk. Apparently that makes it a mistake, but even under the influence of alcohol it was still his choice. Especially since the times he was cheating on me he was pretending to be at home to avoid being caught. He also had the delight in telling me that he had in fact brought me an engagement ring and wanted to propose to me when he comes here, he of course is not doing that now as I am in a relationship I want to stay in.
On a plus note of that, it looks like my best friend and I are going to Ed Sheeran after all as someone is selling tickets to us :D
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