Ever learnt something about someone and it's changed the way you look at them completely?
As in you saw them as this strong, independent person and thought no one could ever knock them down only to find out they have been knocked down to the point they almost gave up everything; to me it makes you love them more. What helps is I've been in that position before, I know what it's like to reach the point where you feel like ending your life is the only way out. It is so hard to escape from your own mind especially when it's taking everything in your will power to keep going.
That's the main positive thing that 13 Reason's Why taught me, it's what got me back to writing on this blog.

I will never do that to him or ever do what she did to him in all my life I have with him, I don't know what the future holds but I hope he is in my future for a very long time. Everyone in the family like him and he fits in so well, it's like it was meant to be. I'm so glad I decided to give the whole relationship thing with him another shot; It's so much better than last time.

Hope your day, night, evening or morning is going well. If not just remember that your bad day doesn't mean you have a bad life.

Ancestry Ethnicity Estimate

I've always been interested in history, especially when finding out where my family came from. Ancestry.com have a DNA test where you send some of you saliva to them in the UK and they work out an estimate on where you are from.
I identify myself as a New Zealand European as my ancestors travelled here to New Zealand/Aotearoa by boat.
What I have discovered which I find both surprising and interesting is eight regions of the world my ancestors are from, so far dating back to the 1700s.
Most of my DNA is European, 36% is Great Britain which includes England, Scotland and Wales. This also includes 33% in Ireland/Scotland/Wales and 24% Europe West which includes Belgium, France, Germany, Netherlands, Switzerland, Luxembourg and Liechtenstein.
According to my DNA I have a estimate of 3% Scandinavian which includes Sweden, Norway and Denmark.
I'm not sure 100% how they work this out but I apparently have just over 1% of Caucasus which includes Armenia, Azerbaijan, Georgia, Iran, Iraq, Syria and Turkey, I also have just over 15 of Finland, Russia, Tongan and Samoan and only 1% of South Asian which includes India, Pakistan, Nepal, Bhutan, Bangladesh and Sri Lanka.

Other regions that Ancestry DNA include are the Africa Southeastern Bantu, Africa North, Africa South-Central Hunter-Gatherers, Benin/Togo, Cameroon/Congo, Ivory Coast/Ghana, Mali, Nigeria and Senegal. Asia Central, Asia East and Asia South.

Europe also includes Great Britain (East Midlands, West Midlands, North West England, Yorkshire, Pennines, North Wales, South Wales, West Midlands, Devon, Cornwall, East Anglia, Essex, South East England, Northern England). Ireland/Scotland/Wales (Ulster, Ireland, Derry, Inishowen, Donegal East, Donegal Southwest, North Midlands, Ulster East, Connemara, Galway, Mayo, Sligo, North Connacht, Munster, Cork, Kerry, Limerick, Southern Ireland, West Cork, West Kerry, Scotland, Central Scotland, Northeast Scotland, Scottish Highlands, Eastern Nova Scotia).

Scandinavia includes Southern Sweden (Gotaland, Svealand, Western Gotaland, Eastern Norway, Western Svealand) Western Norway (Hordaland, Rogaland, Vest-Agder, Serlandet, Vestlandet) Central Norway (Hedmark, Akershus, Trondelag) Eastern Norway (Buskerud, Oppland, Ostlandet, Sor-Trondelag, Vestlandet) Europe East (Northeast Italy, Croatia, Bosnia, Herzegovina, Czech Republic, Slovakia, Poland, Lithuania, Hungary, Romania) Europe West (Germany, Midwestern United States, Alsace-Lorraine, North Dakota, Baden-Wurttemburg, Hassen, Kansas, Nebraska, Northwest Germany, Netherlands, Midwest, Saxony, Iowa, Illinois) Netherlands, Belgium and Luembourg (Brandenburg, Mecklenburg-Vorpommern, Netherlands, Northern Germany, Schleswig-Holstein, Lower Saxony, Western Germany) Europe South (Greece, Turkey, Albania, Sicily, Calabria, Southern Italy, Calabria, Campania, Basilicata, Molise, Lazio, Puglia, Salerno, Umbria, Abruzzo, Lazzio) Northern Italy, Iberian Peninsula, European Jewish (Western and Central Europe, Eastern Europe) Finland/Northwest Russia (Lakeland, Lapland, Pohjanmaa, Western Finland and Oulu) America (New Mexican, Jalisco, Aguascalientes, Guanajuato, Michoacán, Western Mexico, Central Mexico, Chihuahua, Durango, Zacatecas, , Northwest Mexico, Southern California Coast, Northeastern Mexico, South Texas, Tamaulipas, Nuevo Leon, South Texas, Northern Tamaulipas, Ecuador, Peru, Chile, Nicaragua, , Costa Rica, Central America) Pacific Islander (Melanesia, Polynesia, Hawai'i, Tonga, Samoa) West Asia (Caucasus, Armenians) Middle East (Syrian-Lebanese).

All together that is 150 regions.

If you found that interesting and are still reading this and want to know about your ancestry and dna at the moment they are $90 until the 18th March. If you sign up now its 50% off.

hope you have a nice day or night where ever you are.

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Study and headaches

Back to full time studying again with constant headaches, well it's part time study but it feels like full time. Re writing about curriculums and pedagogies without repeating yourself is quite hard, hopefully I do better this time although I still have a problem with procrastinating. It doesn't  help of course when Netflix finally adds the last season of your favourite show right when you go back to studies, its like they teamed up with my education provider.
The hardest part about studying for me is putting myself in the right mind set to actually read the set text books which is half funny and annoying as I can easily sit there and read something like The Book of Dust in a night or two if I didn't have other priorities.

No luck so far in work yet but then again I am only half looking as I am not too keen to study at night. I'm kinda glad I am only doing it part time for now as I only have to hand in two assignments at the same time and not three.

Has anyone else had the problem with blogger where you make one mistake and correct it and then the entire text after you correct it has the red line no matter what you say even though there are no spelling mistakes?

A Bit of a Very Belated Intro

Sadly it looks like my best friend and I won't be going to Ed Sheeran, there's just so many scammers out there that we don't trust any sellers.
I thought I'd introduce myself a bit as I have realised that I haven't really in any of my posts and there's nothing like the present.

So I am Emma, I've lived in Auckland, New Zealand all my life. I live with my parents and two younger sisters. I have two older sisters and a older brother as well as two nephews and a niece. I have travelled to America and Australia and really want to see the world, more so I want to visit every theme park that there is which is safe enough to ride. I want to have a family some day but that's debatable as I change my mind every day due to life experiences and over thinking.

I am hearing impaired and have right homonymous hemianopia (no right peripheral in both eyes/half blindness). This was due to a stroke I had when I was 9 hours old, I didn't find out about this until I was 18 years old although there were signs of it all my life. I wanted to join the air force and was looking forward to learning how to drive when I found out, I was shattered as of course due to my lack of vision I can never get a licence which sucks but I still want to learn how to drive. I of course can't join the air force cause of my lack of vision and hearing.

I suffered from depression since I was 15/16 and have had anxiety for quite a long time, only over the past couple of years I have discovered that I have Borderline Personality Disorder which hasn't helped in a lot of social situations, especially since I'm also a introvert.

As some people may have read in my posts I am doing a Bachelors Degree in Early Childhood Education, I'm doing it part time so it may take me around six years to complete, so I have quite a journey ahead of me. I am wanting to be a paraprofessional for children with special needs and be a registered teacher.

When  I was in high school I started writing a book, I use to sit there during lunch time, after school and during class time writing this book. I of course was not and still am not the best speller or that good with punctuation. I wanted to be a Author and a Journalist when I got older, my parents encouraged me to do early childhood so I have been doing that ever since although I still have the story I wrote in my head and someday maybe (in my dreams probably) I want to turn it into a tv show and therefore become a director and script writer although I'm not 100% sure.

I've been writing songs since I was little but don't intend in turning them into actual songs that the world would hear, they were more a way of self expression to get bad thoughts out of my head and to just put my joy on paper. 

For those who are into star signs and things, I am a Virgo and my Chinese new year is a Rooster. I am also Bisexual but didn't fully realise this until the past few years. My birthstone is a Peridot although my favourite stone is a Amethyst. I am a Swiftie (Taylor Swift fan), a Potterhead (Harry Potter fan - I'm a Ravenclaw and a Thunderbird) and a Whovian (Doctor Who fan). I am a bookworm, most of my time I am buried in a book and if its a good one that I'm enjoying it's nearly impossible to get my attention away from it. I also love photography, the outdoors (fishing, hiking, boating, bush walks, camping).

I use the word Magpie as my blog title because I was once given the nickname Magpie as any shop I go into I most likely always find anything that is shiny, especially jewellery and books of course.

In my blog posts strictly due to respect and privacy of others I never use peoples names, I only refer to people as them they, she, he, best friend and boyfriend just for privacy reasons.

Anyway I hope you enjoy your day, evening, whatever part of the day or night it is where you are.

Family Reunion, Ex Boyfriends, Boyfriends

The family reunion was good in a way, although I couldn't shake off the feeling of emptiness and loneliness although I was surrounded by people, all were family. I find now that quite often I am feeling this way, lonely I am not alone and yet I feel alone.

My boyfriend came to my parents seafood night the other weekend and it was awesome to see him. He ended up meeting pretty much everyone on my mums side of the family and spoke to everyone there. I was soo nervous about seeing him again, I literally hadn't seen him for five - six years and when we saw each other and spoke it was like I had seen him yesterday. I'm so glad he's back in my life, hopefully he remains in my life for a long time, it's already been around seven months together, last time it was only three weeks so I think it's going pretty well so far. Before he use to be only a head higher than me, now I'm up to his chest. I was of course being called by everyone (especially by my cousins) "Midget" cause of how short I am. He is a pretty cool guy, he works hard, he's funny, he's travelled all over Europe which I didn't know about him before but then again we were only together for three weeks then refused to acknowledge each other existed in a way.
A quote Taylor said was "may your heart always be breakable but never by the same hands twice", this is my second chance with this guy and I definitely think it's worth it. To me it is worth feeling that pain again if I do feel it again if we break up again someday because it is worth feeling this happiness again; I never realised how much I missed being his girlfriend till I started talking to him again and became his girlfriend again.

On a down side I finally found out the truth on why my ex cheated on me, he was drunk. Apparently that makes it a mistake, but even under the influence of alcohol it was still his choice. Especially since the times he was cheating on me he was pretending to be at home to avoid being caught. He also had the delight in telling me that he had in fact brought me an engagement ring and wanted to propose to me when he comes here, he of course is not doing that now as I am in a relationship I want to stay in.

On a plus note of that, it looks like my best friend and I are going to Ed Sheeran after all as someone is selling tickets to us :D

Hope you're enjoying your day/night where ever you are, thank you for reading.