I pray you never feel unloved by me,
I hope you can always talk to me,
I know you may get depression someday and I'm sorry,
You will never be a burden to me,
Even before you exist you are so loved,
I'm sorry for the heartache,
I'm sorry for the pain,
No matter what you go through,
Know that I am here for you,
I love you forever and always even if you don't exist.
Love your future mum.
I seemed to think coming back to Auckland for Christmas would help me with my depression but I assumed wrong. Returning to my old hometown has just left me feeling even more depressed than I already was. I know my depression has gotten worse as I have turned to the one thing I never thought I'd ever turn to, Marijuana. I've tried it twice now and I just want more. It makes me feel so much more relaxed than my actual pills. The only downside of having it is I could lose my current job. I've been feeling so sad and depressed lately I just constantly think about dying, I want to die.
