A New Year

A lot has happened since I last posted. Even though there were a lot of things to be happy about I was often sad.

The Reputation Stadium Tour was Amazing as Taylor always is, our surprise song was Out Of The Woods as Taylor filmed the music video here and therefore the song now reminds her of us. 

It rained pretty much the entire show and was freezing cold but I still had no voice at the end of the night from all the singing at the top of my lungs. 

CharliXOX and The Broods were pretty cool too, it’s a shame we didn’t get Camilla though. 

Before the show started while waiting in-line a older guy who found me later before the show started and walked around with me. He offered a ride to my dads but I kindly refused, even though he seemed nice and was being polite I was still alone and he was a stranger. 

I ended up getting the emerald snake ring and Tour patch and luckily got the first train out of the station to where my dad was meeting me even though I got lost. 

There were signs pointing which way to go but one was pointing in the wrong direction and I originally started going that way instead; if I didn’t use google maps I would have let my anxiety get to me more and started crying, was very close to it though. 

Apart from that it was a awesome night.

I was meant to go down to Blenheim with my parents but ended staying home so my sister who’s working isn’t alone the whole time although it’s just made me feel even more lonely as I’m alone 90% of the time. I spent Christmas Day with my family on the farm which was peaceful and nice and then spent Boxing Day with my dad.

Taylor’s Reputation Stadium Tour Movie cane out of Netflix on New Years Eve which is awesome, I showed one of my best friends it and she loves Taylor more now, when I watched it myself though I was crying happy tears the whole time.

The best thing about 2019 so far is I finally got a job, it’s delivering newspapers but it’s Still a job. I’m basically getting paid to get fit. Only things I know of that I have to look forward to in 2019 so far is the possibility of Taylor releasing her seventh studio album, Avril releasing a new album, Selena possibly releasing a new album and seeing Michael McIntyre live in June. 

A lot of people do these New Years Resolutions thing which I usually don’t do but this year with the help of my work will be getting fit and staying single all year. That may seem like a odd one but looking back I have been in a relationship whether it was short or long since 2013.

I want to make 2019 my year, that I focus on me. I suffer from loneliness, anxiety and depression but I’m going to prove to myself I don’t need a romantic relationship with anyone to dismiss these, I will always have my relationships with my friends and family. 

Hope your 2019 is a great year!