Magic

Deep in the wilderness there was a flaming torch.

Those who possessed it were in control of a impossible magic that made everything you ever thought inpossible happen.

Incredible things did indeed happen while I had it in my possession.

I had always dreamed of flying and there I was viewing the world as I had always wanted. 

I was terrified at first but the adrenaline rush overtook me, I never wanted to land.

I’ve always wanted to travel the world but like everything in life travelling costs money. 

Here I was able to teleport to anywhere I wanted, I visited every country on my list for free. I always had enough money on me as it was now possible with the torch.

I almost lost it once, I was having so much fun I almost didn’t notice someone trying to steal it.

Before I returned this amazing torch to its original resting place in the wilderness I asked for one more thing.

To be everything I ever wanted to be.

I could hear properly without the need of my hearing aids, my affects from the stroke were cured; I could see.

I still needed glasses as that was of course part of my genes but I could see enough to finally legally drive.

I could join the airforce; I could spend days at sea on a sail ship, I could live overseas as a nanny and drive where ever I wanted. 

I finally felt free.

Book Inspired

Destiny isn’t always what you expect,

But sometimes you just know and it all makes sense.

Tragedy could become the beginning of something completely out of this world and extraordinary.

Religion and war are scattered throughout history,

In pain and suffering there is room for love and happiness.

The truth can be easy to read on your path to your destination but hard to find after success.

True love is sacrificing your happiness for others so they don’t spend the rest of their existence in nothingness.

Missing You

I still remember the first day I met you.

We met through mutual friends.

My best friends friend had a boyfriend in your class.

I don’t know why you tagged along, but you did.

I remember you teasing me about my height as three of us went to full up our drinks.

I don’t know why but that first day I met you was the first day you entered my mind and you haven’t left it since.

Miscommunication pulled us apart after three short weeks that felt like forever.

I fell in love with you then and I’m still in love with you now.

All I wanted was a second chance, four/five years later I got what I wanted. 

I knew it wouldn’t last forever as it never does, but I was getting what I wanted. 

The only real danger and mistake I feel I made was after it was all over I’m still in love with you. 

You’re on my mind now more than you’ve ever been before.

I don’t hate you, I love and miss you too much to do that.

I just hate that I love you so much that it hurts that you’re not mine.

That I’m not good enough for you, my love isn’t enough.

I’m not the perfect model looking girl that you so proudly want to show off.

And I can’t wait for the day I forget you.

E.Louise  (c) 

A New Year

A lot has happened since I last posted. Even though there were a lot of things to be happy about I was often sad.

The Reputation Stadium Tour was Amazing as Taylor always is, our surprise song was Out Of The Woods as Taylor filmed the music video here and therefore the song now reminds her of us. 

It rained pretty much the entire show and was freezing cold but I still had no voice at the end of the night from all the singing at the top of my lungs. 

CharliXOX and The Broods were pretty cool too, it’s a shame we didn’t get Camilla though. 

Before the show started while waiting in-line a older guy who found me later before the show started and walked around with me. He offered a ride to my dads but I kindly refused, even though he seemed nice and was being polite I was still alone and he was a stranger. 

I ended up getting the emerald snake ring and Tour patch and luckily got the first train out of the station to where my dad was meeting me even though I got lost. 

There were signs pointing which way to go but one was pointing in the wrong direction and I originally started going that way instead; if I didn’t use google maps I would have let my anxiety get to me more and started crying, was very close to it though. 

Apart from that it was a awesome night.

I was meant to go down to Blenheim with my parents but ended staying home so my sister who’s working isn’t alone the whole time although it’s just made me feel even more lonely as I’m alone 90% of the time. I spent Christmas Day with my family on the farm which was peaceful and nice and then spent Boxing Day with my dad.

Taylor’s Reputation Stadium Tour Movie cane out of Netflix on New Years Eve which is awesome, I showed one of my best friends it and she loves Taylor more now, when I watched it myself though I was crying happy tears the whole time.

The best thing about 2019 so far is I finally got a job, it’s delivering newspapers but it’s Still a job. I’m basically getting paid to get fit. Only things I know of that I have to look forward to in 2019 so far is the possibility of Taylor releasing her seventh studio album, Avril releasing a new album, Selena possibly releasing a new album and seeing Michael McIntyre live in June. 

A lot of people do these New Years Resolutions thing which I usually don’t do but this year with the help of my work will be getting fit and staying single all year. That may seem like a odd one but looking back I have been in a relationship whether it was short or long since 2013.

I want to make 2019 my year, that I focus on me. I suffer from loneliness, anxiety and depression but I’m going to prove to myself I don’t need a romantic relationship with anyone to dismiss these, I will always have my relationships with my friends and family. 

Hope your 2019 is a great year!