Heartbreak Panic

It's funny what people say to you that make you feel so loved and wanted. They tell you they won't ever hurt you or do a douche thing like breaking up with you literally two days after sleeping with you and then admitting they wanted to leave you ages ago....I'm trying so hard to be positive and still kinda be friends with him but I'm finding it so hard. I'm so sick of lying, fake arseholes that I am completely over guys at the moment.

All I want to do is cut my arm or drink, thankfully I have done neither.

On a positive note, my new room is about to be a caravan which I'm quite excited about. My best friend and I are going to sand and paint the inside and we're going to convert the shower into a mini walk-in wardrobe but keep the fridge. At the moment I'm Re-reading the entire Harry Potter series has been a big help, I forgot how much joy I get whenever I read the series.

I've been suffering from anxiety worse than usual since I went out for the last time with my now ex boyfriend, I literally had an anxiety attack just before he picked me up. If I didn't suffer from heartburn I most likely would go back to drinking a lot so maybe the heartburn is kinda a good thing.