Forgive me for hesitating, the last person who wanted to spend forever with me knew mw better than I knew myself. 

And that wasn't enough. 

 One thing I'll never know and I don't think I even want to know: why did he have a secret Instagram account if he "never used instagram"? And why was my main account blocked? So much for Never cheating.... Honestly I think I'm just cursed. First, was Married the entire time, Second, was sleeping with his ex and Third, this. Does Apollo take requests? 

Armageddon

 Was the siblings first time attending Armageddon this year and they loved it. Especially the mystery boxes and small mystery bags. I got a Genshin Impact mystery bag and have to say for $20 it was a rip off but the boxes and small bags were a winner. They also got to see a lot of furries to their joy and have already made plans for what they want to dress up as next year. Two of us almost got tattoos and a new piercing but we decided against it. 

Hope

 Turns out if I don't give in to my thoughts I may actually have a job to go to (plus there's always Taylor). Applied for a relieving job and fingers crossed I may get it, just waiting for the police vetting and the references to go through and hopefully will be a go ahead. Missed teacher aiding, can't wait to do it again.  

Taylor Swift

 Taylor got her master's back!!! I'm so happy for her. She must be so ecstatic to have her life work again. I've missed reputation and Dubut. I can't wait to hear the vault tracks from both albums and eventually her twelfth album. Hope she's having the longest break possible cause damn she deserves it. 

Just Thoughts

 Admitted how empty life has been making me feel lately and was told to wait six months: In all honesty to anyone who is listening or reading this right now, I'd never actually do it. I can't do that to my family. If I do ever end up dead I was murdered cause I love my family way more than I will ever love myself and thanks to 13 Reasons Why I will Never pt them through that, not by purpose anyway.

 It's amazing how quickly your life can fall apart the moment your mentality collapses. Everything around you just crashes, I really feel like writing but I really don't know what. I have so many stories that need to be finished but I don't know which one to pay attention to. 

Help

 Forever entering the phase where everything feels, wrong, empty or incomplete

I don't know

It's amazing how you can feel so lost in life and kinda at peace at the same time; like you just accept the hopelessness. Is that just numb depression?  

Brisbane, Australia

 Brisbane was great, stayed at this very nice hotel with a pool for a few days before staying at the partners place and meeting all of them. It was so hot there that we pretty much didn't want to go anywhere. Ended up going to the Mall to get stuff then was encouraged about Bribie Island. I was going to check out the Brible Island Seaside Museum but I took too long swimming at it closed early in the afternoon which sadly most of the shops did too. Thankfully there was a place that opened when everyone else closed so we have a nice salad and burger.

I got taken around the block in Mango Hill to see how I was on the motorcycle and was told I was very good thankfully and got taken on a 45 minute trip up Mt Glorious which was a nice ride. We stopped at the Mt Glorious Cafe for lunch. My arms, legs and mainly my back were killing me from constantly having to lean back at the right times and stop myself from falling forward at times. The ride down the mountain is what really did it for me, I was so sore afterwards.

I was taken out to dinner at a nice Indian restaurant on my last day which was nice. They ended up changing my flights from a direct flight from Brisbane to Auckland then to New Plymouth while I was in Australia. I ended up on a Brisbane to Sydney flight at 5am and had a 2 hour wait at Sydney before travelling to Queenstown. Had a 3 hour wait before catching a flight to Christchurch only to find out when we got there that the next flight to New Plymouth was cancelled. They organised an evening flight to Wellington at 8pm with a free stay at the Brentwood Hotel but when the six of us made it to Wellington Airport it was pretty much abandoned and they hadn't been told that we were coming. After a few phone calls we finally got a shuttle to the hotel. Only to find out our Wellington to New Plymouth flights the following morning had been cancelled too and I was put on a flight the following evening at 4:30pm. We made it to the hotel and they had put the six of us into two rooms together but thankfully they changed that and we got a room each. I ended up spending the morning there and the afternoon at the airport. Wasn't expecting to have a long trip home but hey it is what it is.