I'm officially moving back in with my parents next week on their farm. I kinda have mixed feelings about it, I'm moving back cause my dad had a hip surgery and needs a lot of help on the farm with fencing and maintenance. My younger siblings are there of course but one works, my mum also works and my younger brother can only do so much to help out as he is also looking for a job. I will of course have to look for a job also but I'm hoping I can get shift work to get a better schedule going. My main responsibility is going to be the chickens and whatever help my parents need.
I'm struggling with the kinda cause I still have the reasons they wanted me out of the house on my mind and a lot of unresolved issues there but hey that's what talking is for. We should do all right, having anxiety and being super anxious about it doesn't help.
I will have to wait and see how it officially affects my mental health as here it's been deteriorating to the point that I've been staying up later and later and therefore waking up later, the good thing about the chickens is they have a strict schedule and will not be impressed with a late breakfast so that will definitely help me. Hopefully my sleeping schedule will fix as well, I'm a little nervous about how often I may get sick as whenever I've visited over Christmas and birthdays I have gotten bad hay fever at least three days a week, I know you can get meds for it as my sister gets it also.
I'm excited though, especially to see the family pets every day and see which ones decide they'll sleep in the cabin with me; if they're allowed that is. I always have a soft spot for the cats.
Anywho I hope you are happy and are having a reasonably good day and if not I hope it gets better. :)
