I was sitting there the day after my party and yesterday surrounded by people who love me and yet I felt and still feel so alone in life that I want to die.
I know why I shouldn't, I've made promises to people that I wouldn't but feel so stuck and lost in life that I just want it all to end. I just want to wake up and be happy just once. I can't even talk about why I'm sad without crying, can't explain what would make it better without feeling like I'm drowning. I just want it all to end.
