Staying Strong

Can't believe I've almost completed my eighth month being completely clean from cutting. I don't even get the same need I use to get that drove me to continue cutting. I use to have to trace my cross tattoo whenever I felt like slicing my arm but now to my surprise I don't even need to do that. I do still find myself self consciously making the cut motions on my arms whenever I feel the need to touch something.

I'm hoping when I stop having things/events in my life to look forward to I will still feel this way.

Poem Challenge

Crystallised ice matched my heart in a shiver

The shaking blends with my heartbeat as cold as the season

Steam rolls off the street as I stir and taste my hot chocolate

The heat rolls down my throat and boils my body melting my icy heart

Slowly I peel my scarf off me as the warmth melts away the cold within

Clean

It's been awhile.

The main thing I have learnt since the last time I was on here is I most definitely do not need a guy to be happy. I happily haven't cut for Eight Months which is a big achievement for me.

I am absolutely loving being a Volunteering Teacher Aide, the kids are great.

I really should continue with my poetry, thing is I haven't been needing it to stop myself from cutting which I didn't even think was possible.

Although I do kinda miss the feeling of being loved by someone I'm glad I've learnt that I can be happy by myself.

I might be going to Hawaii next year with my best friend as a joint birthday thing which should be awesome, I can't wait when it's official and the actual planning starts.

Anywho, I hope your day, night, evening or morning is going well for you.