Trapped Inside

iM trapped inside

from my bodY

i can’t hide

what’s inside Me

i can’t explaIn 

what can be wroNg

it’s just how i feel

trapped insiDe

things i wish

i could be 

things i find

they couldn’t see

one thing i need 

i need to be

i need to be free

can someone save me

from my mind 

a remedy i can’t find

i need some help

but no ones there

i need your help

please come near 

things i wish 

i could be

things i find 

they couldn’t see

one thing i need 

i need to be

i need to be free

it’s been too long

where ive been silent 

there’s something wrong 

and awfully violent 

can someone help me 

help me see 

to be free

things i wish 

i could be 

things i find 

they couldn’t see 

one thing i need 

i need to be 

i need to be free 

i need to be free 

from my mind 

Emma Sinclair (c) 22/10/11

Some phrases of songs I wrote

When I fell in love with you, 

I didn’t know what I was falling into.

I didn’t know of the endless nights,

Staying up late thinking of you.

Saying hi was a mistake,

Wasn’t expecting the reply you made.

Now I can’t get you out of my mind,

Every day and night forever in my sight.

They don’t know who I am

They make up a profile

Because they don’t understand 

What it is that’s wrong 

Sunshine rain to embers

Watch for those pretenders

Your words are like

Shattered glass against my skin

Won’t see the light of day again

Don’t understand how this began

But I feel like I’m wrapped in chains

Why do they do this?

When they know it hurts

They do it all the time

Just to make me work

You’ve made me scared to be used

By anyone I know

Don’t know if I can trust again

I can’t even let you go

I’m trying to gather 

All my broken pieces

Cause you’re not here

To put them back together 

Like you were before

She sits in her room

Calling herself stupid 

Cause she can’t see

Just how smart she is

Harry Potter Merchandise

Found out yesterday that one of my local shops that I go to once a week to get Pokémon merchandise Finally Harry Potter merchandise including all the wands, wax seal makers, pens and figurine replicas.
Thought the only way I would ever be able to get this type of merchandise was by either going back to Movieworld at Gold Coast Australia or when I was planning to go to England to visit my ex boyfriend who just happens to live nearby the Harry Potter Studio in Watford. They have a online store but they don't deliver overseas which is a shame.
The only thing that would make the merchandise at the shop even better is if they had the uniforms for Ravenclaw, Gryffindor, Hufflepuff and Slytherin.
I can easily see myself spending an awful lot of money there, I've already got two of the wands and just found out you can buy a lot more on their online store.
Anyways I best get going now to finish this assignment of mine before heading out, thank you for reading and hope your day or evening or morning or afternoon goes well and you all stay safe and well.
Until next time, Emma x

Study

Back on again after being off since May.

Studying is A lot harder than I thought it would be, I either over estimated myself or under estimated my study load but still going to keep trying and not give up although there has been quite a few times where I almost have.

A lot has happened, my best friend of four years is no longer my boyfriend but I'm back in touch with my favourite ex and have sadly lost touch with my longest best friend I've ever had which I'm quite upset about. 

Right now I finally feel free to be who I am and to love who I want but need help to change. I'm wanting to lose weight but I find it so difficult to do so I really need to be more self motivated. 

About to get my second tattoo soon, I can't wait! It's going to represent my number one love in life who has been there from the start and will be there to the end, music 🎶

I really need to start working on being happy inside and out and I hope this time I really will be .